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Going Down (Remastered 2000) I AM NOT A LOSER!

No! I'm NOT a Loser! Nor, am I Forsaken. Shaken, yes. Shocked? Perhaps, sometimes. 
Did I ever have any idea that I would live so long? I'm not sure I ever had time to think about IT.
My life was lived quickly, at a lighting speed, if you ask me. "One Adventure" after another. Often harrowing, always quite unbelievable, always miraculous.

Did I know my own "mother" was HORROR UNLEASHED? No, s/he was never quite clear about who or what s/he was. Gay or Straight? Bi or "try"? Rage, Torture, Terrorize or pretend to love and nurture?
Sure, from conception,  I knew something was "amiss". I know I knew, that whore was an evil, demonic,  slutty, ignorant imp, while still incubating in her corrupt womb.
Are there a lot , do a lot of wo/men like martha, exist? Yes!!! Evidently!
Thus all the "secrecy", "silence", rejection, rebuke, and lies.
 I've been trying to reveal.  to expose , that low common slut,  for over seventy years. Can't get a peep, not one sound, not a syllable,  from one of these so called "Christians".
Not even my fellow victims.  "Loved ones" ,  still so controlled by that viper, that common, manipulative, superstitious , "Root Working" whore, violent succubus,  they prefer to hate me , rather than  ever attempt to give that "Monster Mother", a taste of her own medicine.
I get IT. IT is certainly easier . Hating on me shall definitely  reap the "Instant tears and terror", you seek.
Well, I finally got tired. The low slut forced me to finally know succinctly , what s/he was; just another, ignorant, fake, phony, manipulative, envious, jealous, pathological liar, that seriously counted her "Color",  and hair texture, a blessing from GOD.
Wait, her ability to lie quickly, s/he actually attributed to her "brilliance". 
 S/he took pride in her ability to :"scramble any nigger's brains". Bragged about IT every day.

Yes, HORROR UNLEASHED! So! "Fret not thyself because of evil doers."
I certainly am comforted when I look back over my long life, and realize, reflect on,  the "Goodness of GOD".
Sure, that low maggot, slut martha,  did do me alot of wrong.   Yes, s/he was , what s/he was! World, martha jane walters , was the little white,(High Yalla), red headed , demon child,  that smashed puppies between bricks for fun!
JESUS CHRIST! ; might be your first reaction. Now, think again.  Did you survive her? Did you Thrive? 
I sure did.  Any of my siblings that chose to still lie or live in silence,  concerning our "birthER",  that is your choice. We all have Free Will.
As for me; I'm Over the Moon! Thank You Jesus!

I have five brothers that suffered right along with me. But, I'm the fool! I'm an ungrateful idiot, a Black nig-ger, for telling.
I'm "No sense-ED"!
I'm left out, counted as no count, because I failed to become rich , and prosperous in a system designed for one percent,  of the one percent.
I was looking over this one picture from my youth. I must say, I was once damn Good Looking!
All my early pics say "Movie Star"! At least brilliant author, actress, artist. That would be "A NO",  for me.
No matter, "Sung or Unsung", I did it! I am a great writer. (Only because the Holy Spirit writes for me).
The jealous, don't know that. They can't. There are far too many people like my mother,  and that horrid "man",  that I actually, accidentally,  married. A (man)   that sought,  and still seeks, to destroy me. (s) he hates me because he knows he was WRONG! He knows how absolutely Despicable he was,  and still is.
Why? My gifts and talents are from The HOLY SPIRIT.  So, hating me or my gifts,  is the same as hating GOD.
I would not do that.
I love GOD! I always have and I always will. I know when you trace all the horrible , excruciatingly , painful experiences, I was forced to suffer,  because of,  and at the hands,  of my own "mother". Please don't be sad or disappointed. I am OVER THE MOON! This World shall never know how much that low whore for satan didn't get to do!
"No pain, no gain"

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