IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! I sing gliding into the Joy always forbidden by the ignorant, racist, clown that birthed me. So? My Joy has never been decided by you or the likes of you.  You simple little pervert, too common, too despicable, too sorry, too lazy, too common , to dare hope to change, to slightly improve.  It is not how  much money you have, possess, control and can begrudingly "hand out".  It is not how brilliant your next scheme is going to be. It is not "color" and hair texture. It certainly isn't how many people you can "Con" and or terrorize. It is "You", your "Id", your "essence".  Please do not think you can force your dishonesty, pathological lying  on me with your  rage, guilt and "poverty",  No, I am not filthy rich.  But, I have enough.  Our Joy, my Joy, is where my heart is.  UMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm BEAMING! ***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES*** Wednesday, December 30, 20/20

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!   I love this song, it always puts me in the Holiday spirit. For many years I traveled I-20 East and I-95 North, back to North Carolina, back to family, for the Christmas Holidays.  For many years I blindly did the "Family thing".  Family is everything, I was always taught. Love your mother.  All HOGWASH! All bullshit!  Now, I am humbled! Exhausted, finally realizing I was in a full fledged war with satan for SIXTY-TWO YEARS!  I am still dazed and confused. HORROR UNLEASHED! World, my own"mother", my "birth-ER" was one SICK, PSYCHOTIC, SADISTIC, DEMON POSSESSED , SLUTTY WHORE FOR EIGHTY-EIGHT YEARS! WHY?  How? Easy, we were "TRAUMA BONDED"  by the sickest, most sadistic, evil hue-man MAGGOT to ever slither on this planet Earth?  An Ordained Pastor/Minister for over Fifty years! How? Fear! Ignorance! The System of white Supremacy. s/he is dead now. Been dead over seven years!  The number "Seven" signifies compl

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!  Thank You LORD Jesus! Thank You for making every crooked way straight. Thank You for exposing this World full of predators! Thank You for leading and guiding the righteous, your anointed. Thank You for ROME WALTERS, LORD! I am forever humbled LORD! Yes, Your mysteries , your mysterious ways, never cease to astound me. Me, a little Black nothing, summoned to this evil Earth to be a low whore's footstool. Yes, I was deliberately conceived by a wo/man so ignorant, so low, so full of self hate , s/he deliberately made every life s/he touched horrid, painful, joyless, empty. Why? That is how that low slut for satan (secretly) felt about herself. Do NOT ever feel sorry for that succubus. We all have "Free Will". That idiot was lazy, common, greedy, mostly racist.  Please stop pushing the innocent to remain in toxic relationships because you are in shock or so-called disbelief. Feigned disbelief, disguised as fear and loyalty , is what kept that low ,

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Unexplainable? Yes! Can a hue-man being be made perfect? Can any hue-man being be made happy? Can material wealth, skin pigmentation, gender, status, wealth guarantee happiness? Apparently not. A man that proclaims he shall be the richest man to ever live, is miserable! While he is certainly a Mongrel Monstrosity, he did manage to steal the title, president of the United States. Sure, he behaved like the miserable, fractured, evil, demonic cretin,  he certainly is. But, he did not get to where he is alone. He had a lot of help. Evil, lying, predatory "help", yes,  his following is HUGE! So? There is Power in the Blood! How many suffering today are suffering simply because they are deeply dishonest, jealous and envious of everyone they meet? That was the case with my poor, stupid, demon possessed "mother". Born beautiful, "light bright and damn near white", she deliberately chose satan as the head of her life. Why? GOD only knows.

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!  The true Glory of Love is being able to love freely, sincerely, without guilt,  malice or regret. The Glory of Love is something I never had, never received from that succubus that birthed me. Something that total bottom fag-goat,  my own mother tricked me into marrying, could never give me. Something this "white power"structure has always denied me. Something my fellow victims refuse to see me have , also. For EIGHTY-EIGHT YEARS  that low, sick, sadistic, closet demon slithered among us, sucking the very marrow out of our bones. Yes, my own "mother" , birth-ER was HORROR UNLEASHED! Question, what kept her, why was s/he able to freely SCALD, BLUDGEON, BURN, BRAND, RAPE, ROB, MOLEST, MURDER, TORTURE,  AND CONJURE ,  for so long? Were we just a bunch of Black ass nigger dummies,  as my "mother" professed,  every damn day I knew her? Or did  martha jane walters , fall prey to the demons s/he conjured?   Oh yes, it is a fact and eve

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!  Finally! Some Truth being told, some "Tea" being spilled! Look at that orange "maggot", that Despicable, Horrid SUCCUBUS, that played himself.  The stupid fool was the sorriest, lying-est , piece of **** , that ever slithered on this good Earth! Outside of my own "mother", that is. HORROR,   mutha****ing PERSONIFIED! Yes, the volunteer, common, maggot, closet Fag-GOAT, got exactly what s/he deserved, too. Seriously! "For real though", the low 'hoe was a self styled, homemade "Voodoo Priestess". A modern day Jezebel. Down to the Incest and Conjure.  The Jezebel of ancient scripture demanded the head of John the Baptist. Why? John refused to lie for the lying whore! John refused to honor the crusty bitch! Yes, s/he had his head served up on a silver platter . But, the dogs dug her dead ass up and scattered her lying, perverted, demon possessed bones, across the land. When any wo/man volunteers to call herse

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Thank You GOD for the strength to STAND!  Yes LORD, for what ever reason, I was birthed into the clutches of a fallen wo/man, a PURE DEMON!  DEMON! DEMON! DEMON!  Any one that controls her innocent children , by bragging they are lucky , because s/he let them live, is beyond Batshit crazy, that Loon is DEMONIC!  First of all, don't ever tell me what I know, or down't know.  Don't you dare evaluate me ,  based on my "lack of status", wealth, fame , age or gender.  I am who I am, what I am and what The HOLY GHOST  created Me to be. I am a Truth Teller, someone very rare these days.  Not only am I a Truth Teller, I am "Old" and I Rage! I am mad! The fact that a wo/man as horrid as my birth-ER came to this good Earth, cut the absolute demonic fool and nobody but me, seems to even care, cause my blood to boil. I know I should not. I know it is ALL in Divine Order.  But, that low slut got away with countless murders! Why? Was s/he re

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!  I guess you could say , we reached a "Stand off".  For some reason , in 1965 my "mother" and older brother,  were feuding! There is no telling what that old secret slut was demanding. At any rate, the old lying slut , put this record on and blasted it for hours and hours AND HOURS! ALL F*********IN' DAY!   I know now, that was a form of psychological and emotional abuse. At any rate, my brother finally tore into the "living room", grabbed this record off of the "Hifi",  and broke it into "smitheri-RENS". martha, for once, did not say so much as mumble a word. LORD, thank You. While many may look at my life, our lives, and see people forsaken, people lost and losing. No sir! I see people rising, healing, being made whole! "When your head is in the Lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves."  Family, the Lion is dead, been dead. Is good and DEAD! THANK YOU JESUS! While that old lying slut

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! Love me some "'Retha"! Yes, I sure miss her. GOD blessed her with some pipes! I always wanted to sing like her. Believe me, I tried and I tried.   I couldn't; "Tone deaf", I can't carry a tune in a bucket.  I can hear the music, I can actually feel it, just can't replicate it.  No, "sang-in'" is not one of my gifts. I LOVE music! I Need MUSIC! Sometimes it soothes, sometimes it hursts, but,  at all times it feels good. I am sure my "mother"  loved Aretha Franklin!  (s/he) Always played, blasted her music , through out her house,  on Dwain Drive.  My "mother" and her cousin, Junebug Walters, made Dwain Drive , "legendary", years ago. My "mother" was the "go to"  lady.   If you were seeking "voodoo", an abortion, any and everything illegal..  If you were facing "trouble", felt "cursed", my "mother" "Madame Watson"

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! "Trouble don't last always."  Bull****! The fact I have to cuss in code , is more evidence of the sheer bull****  propagated by the "Church", than the thousands of books written to identify vipers like my "mother", wo/men  that (secretly)  delight in tormenting their own progeny FOREVER!   The rise of this Mongrel Monstrosity and the  "millions" that have agreed to highjack religion, delight in causing massive death and destruction,  offer absolute proof , most "Christians" are nothing short of DEMONIC! Yes, most so-called "Christians" are not Christ life AT ALL! Most are just like my "mother" and her people. We used to damn near get whiplash, suddenly altering our activities and "personalities", once a week, EVERY F*******ING SUNDAY! My"mother" was a part time prostitute, soothe sayer, Tarot carder reader and jackleg Gepsy! Yes, and all round swindler that preached

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! I can not speak for anyone else's "Dry Bones", but I can certainly speak for mine. My Dry Bones are Rising! Rising rapidly! While these low whores are vexing, tormenting, relishing in all the misery they deliberately cause, (semi-secretly),  then immediately deny, I am healing. Sixty-two years is much too long to waste, trying to love a SUCCUBUS! IT CAN'T BE DONE! World, be careful. Satan is loose! "Hiz 'hoes done tuk ova". The miserable muthafuckers are nothing but hue-man roaches! Not even Cock Roaches. The dirty, lying, vindictive, psychotic, sadistic sluts,  are nothing but them "luddle biddie" roaches. Yes, roach maggots.  The big roaches don't even associate with them. Dear Children of GOD, please finally exercise your  "Right to Think Critically". If a muthafucker acts like a sadist slut, some of the time, S/HE IS A SADISTIC SLUT ALL OF THE TIME! SHUN THE VERY PRESENCE OF EVIL! My evil, sick, sadi