IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! World, when I tell you; IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER, it is! I'm over here in the most beautiful city in the World. I'm honored, I'm humbled! No, I didn't do it. I haven't been able to think straight since I re-connected with my demon possessed "mother",  and brothers. Sure, "madame watson" and The Black Price,  put their ignorant ass, poorly educated, lustful, common, savage, primitive "mathy jane" Voodoo Roots on me. No, not just me, on any,  and everyone ,  and everyone that caused her to be jealous. Plus, the old , low, ignorant "Bottom Feeder" was a volunteer niggER! Why? Color! Seriously, for the entire eighty-eight years that old viper,  was forced to slither around on her snake belly, s/he bragged about her color, how light s/he was. How straight her hair was. Just like t rump, s/he sore s/he was brilliant. No, s/he never made one mistake in eighty-eight years. s/He attributed every "bad...

Dear LORD, Thank You for all of the beautiful music you have always emershed (engulfed) me in! BEAMING! Not SCREAMING,  which was satan,  and martha jane walters'  plan. Fuck 'dem bitches! STANK 'HOE! STANK 'HOE! I'M STILL DANCING ON YOUR DEAD ASS , "WHITE" GRAVE (Bitch'hoe)! Dear World, Our "Collective Problems" have far more to do with Character, than Color! I am a WITNESS! I have to testify! I have so many friends,  and relatives,  that not so secretly hate my guts,  for still attempting to  reveal martha, mathy jane, janie, martha jean, madame watson, rev watson,  and far too many other pseudonyms , to mention. martha was truly a fucked up hue-man being, alright! Very Tragic. Also very sobering to finally know, that GOD/The HOLY SPIRIT , knew you  were in the clutchres of satan, the whole time!  BEAMING! I was fourteen. The house, 825 Dwain Drive, was very nasty, putrid, stank, as per usual. My "mother"/ birthER , was a sick, sa...

BEAMING!!! DELIVERED!!! MY LORD! MY LORD! Dear Dumb ass,  donald j t rump,  you are a Loser! A Maggot! A POS!  My birthER's TWIN, a demon possessed,  sack of dog shit,  that some ignorant ass "Church",  ordained to preach! Just like martha, donnie , you went too far, and stayed too long. While you are certainly HORROR UNLEASHED! You have no power. You are actually 1000% MAGGOT! You are crawling , oozing with putrid pus! You are a lower SLUT  than my own birthER! May you soon get what took that stanking whore too long to reap.  FLUNG! You REBUKED RAVENOUS, INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE!  CLOSET HOMOSEXUAL! ROOT WORKING , PREDATORY PIMP! You are HORROR UNLEASHED!

Not only am I marked Safe! I am DELIVERED from the lowest, despicable, "Bottom Feeder" to ever slither on this good Earth! BEAMING!!! World, while my birthER was indeed Despicable! HORROR UNLEASHED! I'm still Growing and Glowing! Thank You LORD! s/he always hated me, always blamed me for her filth. Labeled me the family "snitch"from birth. Where did you get that idea from mathy jane? Did you really believe your white skin gave you the right to slaughter, rape, rob, murder your own flesh? "You musta did , because you sho'did!" martha you were SCUM! You were in fact always the "Bottom Feeder",  granddaddy  always accused you of being. Is that why you MURDERED him? You stank 'hoe! You are FLUNG!  You refused repentance at eighty-eight! Of course you did! When were you ever honest? Teachable? Reachable? Intelligent? Calm? Serene? NEVER!!!  When did you ever care about anyone more than your white skin? NEVER!!! (Look at that old low slut t...

DELIVERED FROM A SAD, PSYCHOTIC, SADISTIC SOCIOPATH!!! BEAMING!!! Who knew? Seriously , who knew, who could know that anyone would volunteer to become a complete MAGGOT? Who knew any one could become such a disgusting, despicable "Bottom Feeder", while proclaiming to be righteous? Who knew any wo/man would ever delight herself, get her rocks off,  viciously raping her own flesh? Burning, branding, raping repeatedly, robbing of every good gift,  intended for me?  World, that wo/man martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux , HATED ALL OF HER Babies ! Every embryo that  successfully made it through that sick whore's corrupt, stank ass vagina, was going to be stalked, enslaved, tortured, and reduced to dung , FOREVER! Who knew any wo/man, so called mother/daughter/sister/cousin/pastor, would dig "a murdered  man's grave" dry, out of jealousy, envy,  and greed, for control? GOD knew!  Marked Safe and DELIVERED from Scum, from djt's TWIN! BEAMING!...

Woe unto anyone that is a chronic liar! Woe unto anyone that deliberately bullies their "Loved Ones". Woe unto you  for being so low functioning intellectually .  You count someone else's tears as some kind of victory for you. You can count your unending, rapid fire cruelty,  as courage , if you want to. Never forget Jesus weep. That was my "Birther", a slut as horrid as hitler, just as lyng, cruel,  and sadistic. Yet, still secretly loved by those that love and rank by color. Woe unto you for prejudging , and hating me for being "too dark". An unfortunate, unwanted thing,  that you are forced to tolerate , from a safe distance, of course. I'm a whiner! I play the victim! I survived the sickest, most  sadistic, mongrel of a mother,  for seventy-three years but, I'm playing victim. I had to duck, dodge, hide in the woods, for ten to twelve hours on the regular  but,  I'm the problem. Woe unto you for seeking every opportunity to belittle me,...

THAT scummy whore,  went to her dirty little grave,  ladened  with eighty-eight years of pure filth (if you round up). Well, GOD maketh not ashamed. Sure , I have tried to warn this World about mathy jane,   and her kind.   Totally FAKE! Disingenuous, manipulative, Blessing Blocking, jealous haters.    For over seventy years, revealing mathy jane has been My Mission. All to no avail. We do occupy a world full of martha janes, low, despicable, perverted, greedy, carnal sluts.  Pretentious pimps,  that preach for cover, money,  and to mock GOD. Love them, praise them, lie , and cloak for them , if youu want to. You have Free Will!  You shall never be happy.  You are delusional enough to confuse cruelty with courage, blaming others for your inability to tell the Truth, about anything, ever. One lie leads to a million! Question? Is s/he worth it? I know that slut that birthed me, was not worth lying for,  or fearing, ever...

"All I know, is all I know." The wo/man that birthed me,  over seventy-three years ago,  is not, nor was s/he ever worth,  all the excruciating pain , s/he deliberately   caused! Why?! The WHORE was a SADIST! DEMON POSSESSED! IGNORANT! IMMORAL! GREEDY! PRIMITIVE! CARNAL! A LUSTFUL PERVERT,  THAT SERIOUSLY BELIEVED S/HE COULD DO ANYTHING,  THAT EVER CROSSED HER CORRUPT, DANGEROUS MIND ! BECAUSE S/HE POSSESSED WHITE SKIN!!! For real, I am not lying. If that despicable slut ever  truly loved anyone or anything, it had to be WHITE! Poisonous, venomous, white Water Moccasin , WHITE! Stand in a full length mirror, all day,  drooling all over yourself, because you are so fucking White! Justify your sick perversions, plots, plans to destroy, rapes, robberies, brutality,  and "Root Working", because you are so White! Sure, we called her an "ordained pastor" because s/he  demanded it. World, "What mathy jane wanted,  and what mathy jane ...

BEAMING NOT SCHEMING! GOD/The HOLY SPIRIT IS MAGNIFICENT!!!  Dear World, yes GOD, The HOLY GHOST, The "un-nameable, un-definable, un-corruptible , impenetrable,"Pure Righteous Energy", that  can not be defeated, ever! Period! DELIVERED ME! SET THIS CAPTIVE FREE!!! Dear LORD, thank you for another wonderful day! Thank you for delivering me from my worse Enemy! An ignorant, brute-ish wo/man, so void of morals, s/he died a complete filthy Maggot! HORROR UNLEASHED! THE arrogance martha jane walters proudly paraded for eighty-eight years ,  was so foul, so  unconsciousable, ridiculously disgusting, "This should not be"! My efforts to reveal this ABOMINATION TO THE HOLY GHOST, should not have taken this long. This is some unnatural, demonic, fucked up Conjure! Of course, low life, common ass, Maggot martha,  brought this curse on her own family, most importantly on her self!  No! You, GOD, Jesus, nothing, no one,  was ever going to correct,  or teach th...

Yes! It is another AWESOME Day of learning my Truth! HORRIFIC! No wonder!!! My LORD! My LORD! "What a privilege it is to carry everthing to you in prayer." My LORD! MY LORD! Who knew martha jane walters was always a Sick, Sadistic! Carnal Nymphomaniac !?  An Incestuous Pedophile that was cunning enough to preach for cover. for cover, and all the money and glory s/he could steal. Just as narcissistic, loud, lying, vulgar, racist, ignorant, greedy, jealous and demon possessed. "Endure to the End!" My GOD , there are some sick, sadistic, demon possessed sluts on this good Earth. Far too many.  (One is too many !) I'm DELIVERED! I made it to "OLD"! I'm blessed! That low slut martha,  kept my early demise, on her corrupt mind for sixty-two years! A Preacher!  A WOG (Woman of GOD) ! I was naive enought to think s/he was sincere, was really trying,  until t rump.

Beaming! Beaming! Beaming! FREE AT LAST! Saved from a sick, whorish, sadistic, psychotic SUCCUBUS! Stalked for sixty-two years! RAPED! ROBBED! RAILROADED! REDUCED TO DUNG! RIDICULED FOR THE COLOR OF MY SKIN! Hated for being MYSELF! THANK YOU SLUTTY ASS don OLD t rumpish Perverted Predatory Prostitute! You preached falsely! Mocked GOD for your entire too long life! Now I'm dancing on your Dead Ass, Unrepentant "madame watson" grave!

AWESOME!!! Here I am LORD, alone, not lonely. At peace, not lying, cloaking, or even embarrassed to announce to this World, that  I was indeed birthed into the evil, demonic clutches of a complete IDIOT! A sick, psychotic, SADIST, Caligula in drag.  A whore so depraved s/he  did in fact preach,  under "ordination" for over fifty years! A low whore, so scummy, so depraved, so immoral, so cruel,  and despicable s/he aborted her own babies. Raped , molested, bruised, burned, brutalized her own children, FOREVER!  MURDERED HER OWN DADDY! PRACTICED THE WORSE FORMS OF VOODOO AND CONJURE ON HER OWN FAMILY, FOREVER! especially me!  Children s/he always pretended to love, fiercely,  passionately,...  stanking LIAR! The low slut knew full well s/he hated our damn guts! Was sent here by satan to destroy everything Walters, especially grandaddy. s/he did it too! "madame watson" made sure we lost all of the land, sixty-five acres of prime Timberland , sit...

"First of all giving Honor to GOD, who is the head of my life."; is, was,  perhaps the first phrase every "Black Christian" must fully embrace before s/he is "included", accepted or considered worthy of "love". "Church Attendance" is a MUST! Hold up! Notice I didn't say anything about sincerely and righteously "living right". Just look the part, fake the funk. If you ever really wanted to mislead and fool people, preach, quote the Bible excessively and look prosperous.

BULLSHIT!  I deliberately began this blog with a "curse" word, some would call vulgar, just to prove a point; WE THE PEOPLE , have been lulled to sleep. WE THE PEOPLE  are not only comatose, We are "Toast"! Be glad you can't hear the Scream , blasting inside my old, feeble, demented Brain! This old sick, sadistic, SUCCUBUS birthed me. Not because s/he wanted to, it seems old mathy jane , had to. The "Good Christians" judged all, demanded that every female, regardless of age, status or condition, be forced to not only carry their "mistake" to term but, to pretend to love and nurture IT. Talk about "Ain't studdin' you", don't want you, I actually hate your muthafuckin' guts , and I fully intend to stalk you until the day you die, prematurely. My "premature death" was certainly the only "Love" satan's side piece, martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux,  ever had for me. I am on this...

BEAMING!!! No, it could not have happened one moment too some. Yes, I'm grooving. Marked Safe by The HOLY SPIRIT! Protected by The HOLY SPIRIT  all of my days! (GOD saw you SLUT! Every baby you murdered! Molested! Burned! Branded! Scalded!Stabbed! Shot! Brutalized! Raped! Rooted, deliberately led astray, lied on,  and forced into captivity. and made sure you ruined!  martha! martha! martha! Just lke t Rump you were glad, actually proud,  to be HORROR UNLEASHED! Well, "As for me and my house, we shall ALWAYS TELL THE TRUTH!" You slithered on this good Earth for eighty-eight years, proud to serve satan, to lie, to practice evil, to kill and destroy. Now reap! Thank you for purely hating me! You saved me from being YOU! Absolutely Saved! Delivered from an Evil Entity! A "hue-man" wo/man more monster than "mother". More greedy, ravenous, sick, sadistic , perverted SLUT than whore,  than ordained pastor. "Shun the very presence of evil."!

THE fact that the "Civil Rights Movement" has proved to be just another ploy designed, planted and preserved by evildoers, is no reason for me to give up. Numberr one; "I know what I know". Yes! I'm BEAMING!!! OVER THE MOON! I know what I know! BEAMING!!! True, there are times when I remember much too clearly. "Gee-mo-neely-shelly!" "SHA ZITTTT". "I know there is a GAWD!" Sure, I can laugh now...but ..."If it hadn't been for GOD on my side!" LORD HAVE MERCY! I do have to laugh. I , (We) survived an ignorant imp, so deplorable, people want to pretend "you" are the problem. No! No! NO! My Color, my gender, even my dementia , can't make me erase the atrocities , that low slut for satan,  was able to make me suffer (in secret) for my entire  long life. i am not ASHAMED!!! If anyone should be ashamed, it is those silent backbiters.  Those that demand to keep mathy's despicable shit "private". Tho...

"If there be any J<3Y..." I'm pretty sure I tasted it a few times in this long, not too long, life. I do know that I'm clinging with all the hope,  and love I have in me, to remain "sane". I know harsh angry words stir up anger. I know all liars RAGE, crucify, indict, intimidate, bully, and cast you down when confronted. I know I do not want to be a Burden. I know that I am. I know my brain is fried. I know my low slutty, root working "mother",  and her flying monkeys,  did a job on me. However, today has actually been quite wonderful. How anybody can sit up under "dodo brown",  and call him potus, something honorable, is beyond me.  But, then I know that martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux preached, prayed, blessed, anointed and ruled for EVER. (That slut like not to ever died) To this very day , very few, if any, have a negative word to say about her. Why? Do people believe her bullshit about being Madame Watson? Or, ...

It is incredible! (insert video of Hurston's Book) INCREDIBLE!!! World, do know that wo/man , Madame Watson/Rev Watson,  did blast my soul clean out of my body, assaulted me with that two-edged tongue of hers. "You'll be the ONE to betray me!"  Just like her stanking ass was Jesus,  and I was Judas. It was the other way around "Mongrel maggot"! Just like that orange turd, mathy was  not going to be corrected, stopped, hindered or known, period.   It was "Mother's Day" (2005). I remember vividly. I was wearing a pink , three piece linen suit. I was pretty fat that day, over two hundred and twenty pounds.  Every bit four foot eleven.  Was I ashamed, embarrassed? According to my "mother" I was a loser, due to my "complexion". It was always just too bad that I missed out on the "high yalla" gene. My LORD! My LORD! To this very day, Color Struck imps make me want to HOLLAR! My grandfather reminded us, everyday, "We...

Growing and GLOWING!  Yes ! GOD you are truly AWESOME! There exists a wide space between my ears that holds the most precious memories of what should have been a near perfect childhood. Yes, my childhood innocents is married by some evil, demonic, sick, sadistic, incestuous filthy "parents".  So what? It worked in my favor. I am a phenomenal woman! I am a Truth Teller! I am BEAMING! I AM ON FIRE WITH THE HOLY GHOST !!!

Who is afraid of the predatory pathological, sadistic liar that practices Witchcraft on her own family, her own childreen? Who is still afraid of the sickest, cruelest, murderous, malignant narcisist, to ever slither far too long on this good Earth? All I know, is all I know. My birthER was not only a practicing voodoo priestess, s/he was sexually perverted! An Incestuous Pedophile,  that somehow manipulated my fellow victims into keeping her eighty-eight years of repeated atrocities,  a secret. "Ni, I'd take dat to my grave." I guess you would! STANKING SLUTTY ASS BABY RAPIST!  NOT Only did your murder your babies, you MURDERED my Granddaddy! "The only somebody to ever love me!" That slutty ass mathy jane  never  had any damn power! The slut was CRUEL! Period.  Who can 't scare the shit out of a three year old,  precocious toddler,  that spilled the beans on a stank, lying ass 'hoe? You beat , cussed , and cursed my WHOLE SOUL AND BODY  out ...

BEAMING! "Sho'is!"  Saved and DELIVERED from a "Bottom Feeder", another heartless, fake ass, ignorant ass, predatory, pathological lying, envious, jealous, greedy,  sadistic, cruel, demon possessed, perverted imp! Picture me exhaling as I "Catch on", Grow and Glow. Yes, I'm GRATEFUL! Exhaling, shaking my head, finally realizing the cause of my "Madness". Yes, my "Madness". My inability to keep quiet, to "go along to get along". My flat refusal  to let imps rule over me, because of my skin color, my gender, and lack of status. While my so called "mother" did sharpen her two-edged tongue on me daily, IT backfired. I did develop a "Fuck You Bitch" attitude. I did fight fiercely for every scarp of anything I ever earned. Yes, I've had to blow my own horn, protect my creations , and integrity from people still claiming I'm too stupid, too broken, too Black, too opinionated. One day IT hit me, I d...

Over seventy-three years ago, a very common, un-teachable, un-coachable, sick, sadistic, ignorant, savage, brutal,  demon possessed slut, begrude-ingly gave birth to me. Claimed  I was "Too Black". WTF?  I  notice , I was never too Black for your common, nasty ass,  to enslave, rape, molest, brand, burn, crucify,  conjure, stalk, and lie on for sixty-two years. World, martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux (madame watson),  was indeed, by far,  HORROR UNLEASHED! That "T hang", that Entity,    "lived" eighty-seven years, eleven months, and twenty three days , a predatory PERVERT! Certainly more MONSTER than "mother", more PREDATOR than preacher, and this World is much better off with her gone. A greedy, envious, ignorant, racist, sadistic , malignant narccisist, just like don OLD! Wait...s/he was Proud, all to glad to serve satan at every opportunity s/he could, and s/he did. Raged, cussed, cursed, threatened,  and insta...

DELIVERED!  BRAGGING AND BEAMING!!! Dear World, please know The HOLY SPIRIT not only delivered Me from the lowest, commonest, demon possessed SLUT to ever slither on this green Earth, lifted my Burdens, set this Captive FREE!  Yes, GOD you are AWESOME! Not only was that wo/man that birthed me EVIL, the stanking whore volunteered to serve satan. What a total, despicable POS! Actually worse that don OLD, at least he wanted his children rich. That stanking, maggot SLUT martha wanted all of us "broke as a joke", on our knees begging her common, lying, nasty, two-faced, "Root Working" ass,  for help. Well, I can see clearly now and FUCK YOU BITCH! I'm glad you're dead ! DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! Not only are you DEAD, your stanking ass is FLUNG!!! BEAMING!!!

If "Christianity" means supporting "White Power", the absolutely absurd idea that there exists a "GOD" that created all people of color to be servants! slaves, hewers of wood, drawers of water for all white men, Forever? Fuck You! The white man wrote the book! How fucking stupid can people volunteer to be?

For some reason evildoers have always stalked me. Blessing blocked, lied on me, been overly concerned with my "looks", my pigmentation. Born Black, "motherless", fatherless, I had to "hit the ground running".  The HOLY SPIRIT  always led me to the nearest Library, the likes of which "we" occupied , hiding out from that stanking breath, coal Black Pervert, mathy jane was reduced to marrying,  for his benefits. Plus mathy jane was such a known stank 'hoe, no decent man was ever going to marry or remain married,  to her, under any circumstances. Strangely, oddly, I am not mad, not one bit,  because the "What Ifs" hit me. Dear LORD, thank you! What if that low, immoral, psychotic,  color struck, sadistic, cruel , whore , had actually loved me? No, I am not a victim, nor have I ever tried to play one.  True, I am OLD, now. Simply worn out, spent, not lazy. Not trifling, scheming, or playing "head games".  I'm just Life-ing,...

Dear VWW(Very Wicked World); PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM A THRIVE-OR! No, no, no, I have never used my color, status , and  or "victimhood" to whine and cry.  I took my brutalization, incarceration, degradation, just like a natural MAN! No, no, no, my Victory can not be "poo-poo-ed". The LORD Jesus Christ has enabled me to feel AWESOME! OVER THE MOON! I know , what I know! Anyone that wants to label me a loser,  due to my pigmentation, is IGNORANT! No doubt a serial liar.

Shun the very presence of evil?  GOD knows, if anyone knows, the evildoer is a pathological liar. "Their feet run to mischief." 'They' pride themselves in their brilliant ability to "Scramble Brains". They lie, "Gaslight", pretend, ...mostly they can not possibly care less. Yes! It is your skin! I RAGE!  How dare anyone falsely believe that skin color has any bearing on character! The only people that insist on honoring "Color", all have extremely LOW CHARACTER. I know I'm very old but, I'm not nearly as stupid as some horrid , color struck ignoramous, thinks I should be. My own "mother" was never more than a sick, sadistic, undiagnosed, untreated, nymphomaniac, demon possessed "Root Worker"! But, I'm the problem! I'm "too sensitive"! That stanky whore used to give us HOT SOAPY ENEMAS!  But, I'm the problem! That stanking SLUT tried to burn my beautiful face off, when I was three years old...

you should know, acknowledge from the outset, people that benefit from that horrid,  racist system, shall never speak ill of it.   Why should they? It tantamount to biting the hand that feeds them. Yes, the victim shall always be blamed for resisting, telling, complaining. Here I am, seventy-three years old, a survivor of one of the worse , vile, repetillion humans,  to ever slither on this green Earth. You shall never hear of that dead stank 'hoe, martha jane walters hodges doster waston lamoureaux.  Not because they are ashamed ,  they AGREE!   The silent observers  do see you as something vile, "too black". It is true, they can not possibly care less. They just want you to hurry up, shut up and die. Yes! I'M BEAMING!!! I know that I have been  rescued! DELIVERED FROM A COMPLETE SUCCUBUS! Do I care that NO ONE cares? Of course! People playing stupid, and delivering all of the maggot excuses , certainly makes me glad that I've reached "...

"Gone too far, stayed too long."

Don't mention my color ! Yes,  I'm proudly RAGING at the pure stupidity of such an assertion. Not only am I proudly raging, I am vigorously "OUTING" the lowest, commonest, most sadistic succubus that ever slithered on this green Earth. her name was martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureaux! HORROR UNLEASHED! Yet, s/he "pastored" for over fifty-five years!  mathy  jane was the epitome of evil, more don OLD than don OLD. Yes! I hate that BITCH! Damn demon possessed, stankin' ass PERVERT! Manipulative enough to preach and luxuriate in demonic, sick, sadistic acts, for her entire too long life. Thank You for delivering me HOLY SPIRIT! BEAMING!!!

My LORD! My LORD! While I am not on his side, he is reaping. I do have two pertinent questions; #1 why isn't t Rump in the exact same prison? #2 How does one determine a "smirk"? Well, three questions, why is t Rump still loose?

The Bible says endure to the end. How long? Over two thousand years ago a brown man was crucified for "our sins" "OUR SINS" !!! I was three years old when I was feed that enslaving "hogwash". What had I done ? Nothing, yet I was taught that I was a sinner. That I was TOO BLACK, I was a bastard, a total burden, unwanted.  Unwanted until the old slut got bored and needed someone to burn, brand, rape, torture or molest. Am I still angry, am I raging in between celebrating and praising GOD for removing that stain from this Earth. Yes , it is my fervent prayer that, that organge stain be removed soon. Growing and GLOWING!!!

That's right; "Life-ing is a Trip". Ask me how I know. I AM A PROUD SURVIVOR OF THE MOST DESPIOCABLE, DISGUSTING WO/MAN TO EVER LIVE. I said "live" but, I mean slither. It is one horrible truth. I know what I know! Do I still fear her? Am I still that terrified three year old toddler,  that demon possessed sea hag, held down in the woods, beating , cussing and cursing? No, I'm still healing, growing and glowing. BEAMING!!!  Yes, I'm stillholding on to your unchanging hand LORD. Low ass, stanking ass, demon possessed, witchcraft practing, conjuring , martha jane walters hodges doster watson lamoureax , did EVERYTHING SICK, SADISTIC AND DISGUSTING . Things impossible. Did s/he get away? Am I hated, rebuffed, ridiculed, for knowing what I know? Am I still hated by all five of my brothers and their children and their children's children for refusing to take martha's sick secrets to grave with me, as s/he demanded? Well, I would rather be alone, in a ...

That's right! I will trust in the LORD until I die. If I sound undoctrinated, it is because I am. Well, it is not totally indoctrination because it is true. I Rachel Gwendolyn Doster put all my trust in The HOLY GHOST!  Always did and always will. I came into this World beautiful and brilliant, yet hated by my disgusting maggot of a birther. A true tormentor. A sneaky slut, still protected, still honored. No, I DON'T GET IT! Why are so many demon possessed, sick, sadistic predatory imps still being premitted to rule this World? How can I criticize and question this World for doing what it has always done quite successfully; PERPETUATE PAIN! The fact that my own mother was the most horrid, sick, sadistic creature to ever slither on the face of this Earth, can only mean people of color shall continue to be persecuted, enslaved, and eliminated. No, no one is coming to rescue us. We must endure to the end. "They" always called me "Too Black". Never too Black to ...

No! I didn't waste one moment of my time watching that "Debate". Why? People of Color we are fucked, again! So what? Most of us are born fucked. We have to struggle through the Birth Cannel to be born. That's Life! It is called Life-ing.  If you are as fortunate as I am, you'll meet at least one good person to "set you right". I know I know! There is no way any human being is any lower, more common, untrustworthy, greedy, carnal, superstitious, envious and demon possessed than martha jane walters! Ever! Period! I have nothing else to say but, THANK YOU JESUS!!! DELIVERED!!! BEAMING!!!

I am EPIC because IT is EPIC! While I, (We) , always yearned for our mother, or simply any "mother".  IT was not going to happen. World, that wo/man that changed her names, her aliases ,  more than that Shady Vulture, s/he was HORRID! So horrid, nasty, filthy, carnal, it was impossible to stop her. While we were deeply confused, we witnessed her collecting "Goofer Dust" from murdered men's graves,  as a small child. Move away just as soon as you can, was the solution given to me.  "When your head is in the Lion's mouth, you don't make any sudden moves"; was the advise taught to me by my Grandfather. We certainly faired better than my oldest brother. Dear LORD , help him. Be a comfort. He never had a chance. I apologize for my deep ignorance,  and blindness, as well. Not only were all six of us, ( that survived her bloody "coathangers"), TERRIFIED OF THAT WHORE ,  we were certainly NOT ever going  say shit! No! No! No! That stanking ...

My LORD! My LORD!

We sing such sad songs of defeat. Why? satan is certainly no easy win. But, we don't have to give up so easily.   I know I'm tired. But, before I go, I have one more thing to say ,  that wo/man named martha jane walters,  was pure EVIL!!! The low , ignorant slut got involved in the occult, Witchcraft! (early in life)  Stayed there! Lived there! Dug murdered men's graves dry all around North Carolina. Delighted in Incest! Pedophilia! Group Sex! Anonymous sex, just generally freaking, lusting, controling, contaminating, spoiling, degrading, humiliating everyone s/he pretended to love. Why? There is no why, it was her choice! We all have Free Will. s/he chose to be manipulative, carnal, common, nasty, sadistic, lying and just putrid in general.  Yes World, the wo/man that birthed me was p diddy,  before p diddy. I am NOT ashamed! I am proud! I not only resisted that common maggot, I'M DELIVERED! Deliberately spreading fear. Deliberately creating the ...

My LORD, My LORD! Thank you for helping me to understand how these evil, demon possessed predatory wo/men get their clutches into their off spring, their spawn,  and deliberately reduce them to dung. Wo/men like martha, don, etc are sadistic! Fake! Full of SHIT! They are Predatory. I'm praying for you man. Please leave. Know your Truth, Free yourself!

Awesome! Growing and GLOWING! I shall never forget the terror in Chris' eyes! He was not only completely horrified, he was frozen, afraid to move. For hours and hours , we sat in the exact same spot! The place was some community recreation centerr in Hamlet, North Carolina. I was invited, mathy  always invited herself.  For some reason I felt more "unwelcome" than I ever had. I never knew how to fit in, half of the Dawkins seemed to love me.  The other half not ignored me but, the were quite snooty about it. One "first cousin" attended the college with me, passed me walking nearly everyday, never parted his lips. Did it bother me? Of course it did. Did I always pretend that I didn't care? Of course. Martha deliberately kept poor Chris "corned". The low closet whore/ordained pastor talked and talked, and talked. Hogged all the conversation. Did not dare  permit to move!  No, s/he didn't say anything threatening aloud. s/he was just mathy being m...